Gone MADDY!

I'm really starting to feel like I'm going crazy! I'm mean I don't know if it's me, the lost of my father or just life...it may be all three. Whatever the case my brain hurts and needs some rest or a pill or a vacation..I don't want to stop thinking too much because I love thinking, I'm just uncomfortable with my thoughts is all..uncomfortable with my life, my choices, my mistakes and the reasoning behind every decision I've made. They say don't regret a thing but I guess they haven't a thing to be regretful of because if they walked a 1/2 mile in my shoes they would never, ever use that phrase again.

So you say change it Tee, if you don't like something do better, think better, live better! I'm trying I say...ok I'm lying..I've tried but it seems that each and every time I try something gets in the way to make me feel like life has something against me. I'm not wallowing and I'm not feeling sorry for myself..I'm tired of the way Mother Earth has treated me...and I want some answers as to why? I guess I have to look a little deeper within myself to find the answers to those most powerful and important questions....When life hands you lemons does lemonade taste that good?????

Feeling like one of those days where life forces you to out things into perspective. I was up so late last night I'm surprised that I can think right now...grrr

After taking a break this semester it has become very clear that I miss school. So fall semester here I come! I can't wait for classes to begin. Me & the books!

Well, I'm calling it a night...I just wish I could get out of this rut I'm in....Or do I? This is weighing me down to the point of no return...Goodnight moon...

She strikes again!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! *sigh* Aunt flo has entered the building and no matter what it seems she always comes through the door hard body! Ewwwww! She makes me soooo mad or is it sad, no no she makes me cry and hurt.....no no I know how. she makes me feel.......I HATE HER GUTS!!! Straight up, she drives me insane, up the wall, through the roof....Ahhhhhh leave me alone will ya! Go play, read a book, have lunch with a friend, enjoy the cool breeze, crochet or something....just leave me b! But I know you'll be back next month to greet me again with your hell bent behavior and distrub me once again with an unOPENed invitation...no pun intended....*sigh*

A hellofaday>>>>>>>

Today was one for the books. The stress monster was at it again to rep havoc on anything that stood in its way. I just couldn't seem to grasp the point of it all. There was an obligation which should've been met and instead I was treated like some entity of trouble. People are can be very nerve recking without any substance for life but their own. I don't know what the issue was today but it's always something. But my question to you is: How is it that you're positive and I'm negative? Please tell me because everything that you said went way over my head but that statement stuck and I HAVE to know what you mean? You're one of the most selfish people I freaking know! You're one of the worst human beings on this earth yet I'm negative? You live in a world where fantasy is your reality and pigs fly by talking flowers but I'm negative? Yea right! Smh...get a clue and while you're at it, get a life too!

When water thickens up....

I don't know much about anyone else's life but mine. I can only speak against or for the life challenges that I've faced. This is why I love blogging because it gives me the forum to express myself in my own place/space without the interruption of others. *sigh* How I love to express myself....Anyway, I wanted to share some happiness I'm feeling right now in letting go of some baggage which has been weighing me down for a long time now. I can no longer call myself a bag lady but then again I can...I have a few bags left. That's neither here nor there. Letting go of the things you can not change is a major step towards living. So since I've joined the land of the living I wanted to say HOLA!!!!!!!!!!!

Water is thicker then blood when it comes to them....can I get a tall glass with ice please?